"Floating round the gardens of greatness gives me strength to reach up to the sky and stay there. Let my dreams soak into my mind, making everything perfect...."


"And I know, it's only in my mind. That I'm talking to myself and not to him..." On my Own-Les Miserables

"You've Been Hit! If you receive this message you know you are loved! Send this message on to 14 people including the person who sent it to you and show some love!! Threw thick and thin , when your in fear , you can count on me to always be here. And we may have our disagrements, but in the end, ill always be a loving friend. pass it on now!" Chain mail-around 9:15pm 27.09.2006

Haha, random posts.

Anyone need help of any relationship kinds of problem ask me =D I'm glad to help anytime.

clar

Hmmm

School has been rather fine I guess. It hasn't been hard or hurting lately =D
The weather in hong kong is getting dryer and slightly colder, so autumn like ^_^

Autumn weather is my favourite kind of weather compared to spring and the rest.

So dry and colourful especially when you're in Canda with the ever changing colour of the maple trees, so beautiful.
When the weather turn slightly cold, breezes flow all around you and the falling leaves follow your footpath.. ahh so nice =D

I'd better go now

byez

Clar

yes yes yes, It's been quite a while since I added to this Journal =P

Anyway let me get on with the story.

This is what I wrote in my diary today (simular in fact):

"Dear Diary,

Today can be the worst day of my life.
Yes, I kow there have been many more nominated worse days, however this is even worse (sounds deadly unbelievable)

So I learnt that some particular girls from my class Back Stabs me.

At first, I didn't really care, because I know that a lot of other people likes me as a great friend or yeah some other relationship =D

I guess the thought keeps sitting at the back of my mind, waiting to pounch and to destroy my ego in the right time.

So today I heard about it again...
questions then started popping in my head (my anger can go a Loong way if I want to let my anger go)
I have NO IDEA WHY THEY HURT ME FOR!

DID I do ANYTHING wrong?

Why the hell (a bad word...I never do that unless I feel dead) do they have to keep heading for my ego and destroy it?

DON'T THEY KNOW IT HURTS?

***

I'm too torn down now
I'm broken

okay okay, I KNOW life is good.
I LOVE life

I know this sounds so babyish, but this started ever since Year 7 (Form 1)

Even thought I LOVE life, I depends on which one..

That Hurts..

*Ouch*

Clar"

I sound defeated all over

But I'm not like what they think I am.

Yes Yes, I annoy people by singing too much, is that the whole reason why they have to do this to me!?!

I DEMAND A COURT CASE ON IT!!
scratch that last sentence

Even if I win, I guess it's a girl thing that they will start all over again.

I don't blame them or anything,
It's just I'm different and I show it.

I don't like to be like that, but I have to stick to it or else I'm just the core of a dead apple.

=/
Clar

Swimming Gala tomorrow,
I do hope I win something... =P

Anyway, I wrote a new story ^^

The sun's rays shine high into the sky, creating a luminious atmosphere. The birds sing the morning chorus, adding a delicate melody to the morning sky.

Blue-purple skies hover above the fragile landscape, a ceiling unable to touch...so picture perfect...

No. No, no, no and no.
This is not where I live.
Get out of my head,
Go. Get lost..

This is not my life,
and, it will never end up like this...

Haha, those few paragraphs are random.
I thought of them during registration, I guess the descriptions are ok.

I'm not too crazy about this one unlike the first entry, i loved that one xD

I'd better go now,
byez
Clarissa~

Dreams come true.. right?
I do hope they come true, because my dream seem to be sitting next the stars, staring down at me laughing because I just can't jump high enough.

one day I'll jump so high, that I will go beyond my dreams, I hope.

The one day will have to wait, I ain't got better things to do, but those things are crucial.
So that one day freedom will take over me and let me free on my long and lengthy journey of the dream.

I dream too much don't I? ^^;

Sighhh

Sometimes people hurt people to explain the truth.
Can someone make a different way to release the truth when the lie was used everyday?

I hope I can find the cure, somehow.

And make it usable.

Maybe when I grow up, I could be a psychiatrist.

clarissa~

I don't know about you, but I cry for no reason.
Inside of me hurts, but I don't want to cry.
Someone says something, I don't want to cry,
but I cry

I hate it when I cry, It's just a natural reaction which makes me lose self-confidence.

I'm hurt somehow, in the inside.

When it goes away, the remains are still there, lingering at the bottom of my soul.

Clarissa~

Life has been totally fine these days, nothing which is desperately unusual.

I Guess I'll just have to post some wonderful poems<3

I can't give solutions to all of lifes problems, doubts,
or fears. But I can listen to you, and together we will
search for answers.

I cant change your past with all its heartache and pain,
nor the future with its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I cant keep your feet from tripping.
I can only offer my hand that you may hold it and not fall.

Your joys, successes, and happiness are not mine.
Yet I can share in your laughter.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge.
I can only support you, encourage you,
and help you when you ask.

I cant prevent you from falling away from friendship,
from your values, from me.
I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.

I cant give you boundaries which I have determined for you,
But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,
room to be yourself.

I cant keep your heart from breaking and hurting,
But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces
and put them back in place.

I cant tell you who you are.
I can only love you and be your friend.

That one is to everyone who was and still being a great and wonderful friend <3 you guys know who you are, and you rule
[I didn't write that poem xD]

If time was fast forwarded,
Which it already seem it did
Everything would go super-speed
The atmosphere would be so demanding
Need this now, Need that now

Inside, you feel
Why is life running away?
With the soul inside crying for a break
Then notice, a break is impossible
Life is a step by step procedure
Annoying however unbreakable

I don't know why I wrote such a poem which is pessimistic and uncomfortable, I guess that is how I feel at the moment.[this poem, I definately wrote it]

Bye all
Clarissa <3 I love my friends and always will <3

Hihi again^^
Wow september is coming, wish me luck on those auditions in ESF orchestra and choir^^

I'm so hyper these days, I have no idea why ^.^

Byez for now
Clarissa~

End of August is approaching. That's kinda scary since I hardly noticed that August came.
Oh well, it approaches, and it goes^^

I got a few "quotes" from school.
I wrote them during lunch whilst getting splattered with water and boys which are talking amongst themselves all day long in an unsual loud voice which is known as "talking".

Anyway, back to the "quotes"

Even though my dreams are no where near what I recently have achieved,
I wish all the best to my soul to reach that level where my dreams lay.

I also written;

Life is a river, as most people say
to me, it's invisible
Because you don't know what is going to happen next.

Hope you enjoy these little quotes and poetry that I write ^^

Time to go now,
Clarissa~